I am somewhat speechless of what to say. The past few days have felt overwhelming in so many ways. Maggie is not just "under the weather" sick but full out, serious sick. It worries me, breaks me heart and leaves me with fear. I am holding on to God and all our other "angels" as tight as I can. Every breath I take is geared toward what we need to do for her, making sure Ricks gets his share and just trying to do the next right thing. I am spent!
It is funny because I am sort of tired of talking about it. The thought of explaining the situation or even what PI is feels exhausting. I would just love a phone call to check in with how I am or an offer to get some coffee. I got to go out with a close friend last night and just hang. It was great to just be and feel free to let it out. It is like I am caught in some "Mom nightmare". I have to continue to live up to my responsibilities like Welcome Sunday for church while trying to handle a situation of a real sick kid. To be honest, it feels a bit surreal.
All I can think if his Maggie and Ricks. I can't even waste time on who is doing or not doing what. I just have to be and be present for her. There is no timeline when this will resolve itself. How can I keep recharging when by the end of every day this week the battery is spent. I will just keep holding on.
That's all you can do lady!
ReplyDeleteYou are such a great Mommy! The kiddos are so blessed to have you!
Love ya