A Letter to God

Dear God,

I want to take a minute and write you this thank you for the little angel you blessed my life with a little over 4 years ago. Maggie has been one of the biggest and best parts of my life. I spent many years of my life searching. Then one day a nurse put this sweet little bundle in my arms and I knew in every part of me that this was it. I had found the answer to all that I was looking for.

In the past 4 years Maggie has taught me so much about life and myself. She has taught me about joy and love (the unselfish, unconditional kind). Her strength and determination amazes me as she overcomes obstacle after obstacle. And her independent, self-reliance just leaves me speechless. I have wasted so much time worrying in my life about who I am and who likes me. My girl, she knows who she is and has a self-assured attitude already at 4. Her independence could be seen early on in her life and has served her well with a Momma who loves to love her. She lets me know when to step back and has charted her own course even when I struggled to let go.

I suppose you already know 2 of the most special things about her - her heart and her faith. Maggie has huge heart that wants to love and accept everyone. She can't even bear to pick a favorite color because she doesn't want to hurt the other colors' feelings. At her school conference her teachers told me that she is the one child to always put her hand out to the friend who is sad or having trouble. There is a little boy in her class who has some developmental delays and Maggie constantly reaches out to him to be her friend.

God, Maggie's faith is just endless. I wanted to teach her all about You and Your love. I started talking to her about it even before she was born. She took to it and embraced it in a way that stunned me. I believe she has taught me about loving and trusting You. I don't believe at 4 I felt Your presence and love as strongly as she does. Nor did I verbalize it to the world around me. She is a model to me of faith and strength every day.

The reason I am writing this letter is our special girl is really sick. The next couple weeks are probably going to be a bit difficult and painful. I know Maggie will soldier on with strength through the tough times. Even so, she is still so little and it breaks my heart. I love her with all of my heart and soul. She is my sunshine that brightens every moment (even the temper tantrum ones). Please continue to be with her and hold her in Your strong and comforting hands. Give me the strength and calm to do what is needed. Bless me with patience and understanding for the moments we are all stressed and struggling. Most of all, help me to shower her with love in every moment. I know You are with us on this journey. We are never alone and can trust that when we stumble You will pick us up.

Thanks again God for my princess. Without Maggie in my life, there would be a hole that would ache for her spark and energy. She fills me with love, laughter and amazement every day. You have made me the luckiest Mommy in the world. God bless my angel.

Love for always,

Suzi