How do I hold my 4 year old sweet girl as she screams bloody murder while a nurse puts in an IV? How does it not break my heart into millions of pieces? The honest truth is it does break my heart and my soul aches. I see her struggle and hear her pleas to stop and let her go. In my head I know we have to do this so she can get better. At the same time my heart is screaming out in anger and sadness for this little person I love so much.
God I ask you to give me the strength to walk Maggie through the pain and hard moments to come in the next 10 days. There will be many moments where it will feel hard and overwhelming. Please help me to keep calm and be her steady rock. Remind me that I am the adult and so I need to be the strong one who carries her as you carry both of us. She is my baby no matter how old she gets. From the moment that stick showed 2 pink lines I have loved her with my whole heart and soul. God help her to feel that love and know that I am her safe haven. Watch over us both and guide me as I parent her through this medical crisis. Thank you for holding us both in Your hands and being present in each moment.
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