Waiting Game

We are waiting for the results of the culture taken from Maggie's sinus last week. The results were due back on Thursday and still we have no answer. I called 2 times on Thursday and 2 times on Friday. Finally, I was the crazy, over worried Mother who called the after hours number on Friday night. The answer was that the bacteria involved has been resistant to every antibiotic they have tried. The University Suburban lab had to send it to the University Hospital lab for more testing.

Now I have to wait to next week sometime for an answer. There is no specific date or time, just a "as soon as they can" or "hopefully by Wednesday". Maggie is getting sicker as the days go by. She tells me her head hurts in more locations. The infection seems to be taking over her whole head again. During the day she seems able to be active and keep busy. At night, she is spent and completely unable to manage. It is like she pulls all her energy to make it through the day and at night just falls apart. That is when the temper tantrums hit and the clinginess starts. It is when there are more complaints about how she feels and how much it hurts.

So what is a Mom to do when her child is obviously sick and there is no solution for the moment? I am trying to hold it together in so many ways for Maggie. I hand her over in prayer to God, Mary, St. Therese and all the other angels in heaven watching over her. I cry a little at night and worry. There is fear but I try to utilize my faith to ease it.

These are the moments when I have that pit in my stomach and I wish I had a magic wand to make it all better. I want to grab her up and hold on as tight as I can. It is these moments which make me want to overprotect her and keep her away from all the bad things that can and will happen. The reality is I keep on praying and loving her. I remain consistent with the rules and expectations. I keep life as normal as possible and give her some extra tlc. In the end, no matter what happens or when, I need to be her rock, her safe haven and her Mommy.