Middle of the Night

I can't get to sleep tonight. It is like in the quiet of the night the reality of today has truly hit me. I feel like someone just punched me in the stomach as I process this morning's events. How do you really grasp it when someone tells you your baby is so sick? The fear seems to be overwhelming. And the whole IV abx process is Maggie's worst fear. It kills me that we now have to face that fear for the next 9 days. I am trying to take it One Day at a Time but all the sudden I can't breathe. My little girl has a strength in her that I can't say I have ever possessed. She is my PI hero and all I want is to hold her in my arms and make it all go away.