The Quiet Presence

A day at the beach flying kites was the perfect way to end a hectic week. Rick asked Maggie this morning what she would like to do. Enthusiastically she asked if we could go to the "Big Lake". We packed the kites, some snacks and headed out to the beach. It was just the right temperature and even though it was overcast, it felt like the perfect beach day.

Throughout this whole medical crisis with Maggie I have felt this quiet presence. Even in my more desperate, angry or fearful moments there has always been this stillness in my heart. I know that it was God guiding me through each feeling and moment. My faith has deepened the past month in a way I never thought possible. I have never been alone and was always able to reach an inner strength when I needed it.

Today as I stood on the beach and watched as my family flew kites I felt this presence. It was such a strong peace that came over me. I felt as if no matter what happened in our lives, we would be okay. There was a strength and a love that filled my heart and soul. I had no need for words or even tears. All was as it should be. The moment was only a few seconds and ended as Ricky ran up to hug me. But in those few seconds I knew it was God. God was sending a message of love and reassurance. I am steadfast in the knowledge of how much He loves not only me, my husband (although he needs a reintroduction) but my children. As I looked at Maggie and Ricky running around playing chase with such joy I knew that God will always hold them close. And as long as they are in His hands they are safe and loved.

Today was perfect and not because Rick and I didn't snip at each other or the kids didn't whine. It was perfect because I was graced enough to feel the strength and love of God. It was a moment but a moment I hope to hold onto forever. And somehow this moment reminded me that God is not only in those quiet moments but He is in the love Rick and I share. He is in the love we have for our children. And He is in our children's laughter and joy. God celebrates and rejoices everyday in my family. I just need to stop, take a breath and count the ways.