The past couple of days have been a bit rough. Ricks' appointment through me for a loop and Maggie has had a tough couple of days. This morning she spent over an hour on the couch because her head hurt. She cried a bit and just "needed a rest". I have felt a bit down, overwhelmed and exhausted. Even so, I have done all the footwork I can and handed the rest to God.
I am so grateful for the special people God has placed in my life. I have gotten great support from friends. People have understood and encouraged. Tonight I had a conversation with a friend who reminded me of all the growth I have gone through. She reminded how the fear and anxiety used to take over. I thought about all those days where the fear gripped my stomach and didn't let go. Today, even though it wasn't one of my best, I felt a peace and calmness. I know that whatever happens it will all be okay. So even in my darkest moments, there is still a light of hope.
The best part of the past 24 hours is my husband. Rick and I are very different people. I am the feeler and he is the thinker. Sometimes it is hard to communicate especially during stressful times. With some work and commitment, we have been learning how to change our patterns. The reward for hard work has been the past 24 hours. I have struggled and Rick has been there. We work as a team and stay positive. Without his love and support, things would have felt much worse.
Tonight I feel much more optimistic. I have used the tools I have, leaned on others and relied on my faith. The equilibrium has returned!
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