Journaling

This blog has become a bit of a journal for me. It is a place to open my heart and soul after a full day. I relish it and sometimes can't wait for the quiet moments I have to type a few words. My life has changed a lot in the past year and a half. There have been new things to learn and manage. Not to mention new people who have come into my life. Today I have been thinking of how blessed I am to have had all these experiences. I reviewed some the of the posts even from the beginning of this blog. My heart filled with gratitude as I reread some.

Life can be hard and challenging. I think we definitely have hit a few obstacles all the long the way. But somehow God takes care of us and send angels to help and support us. Lately I have just felt so full and blessed in my life. There is no need for grand overtures or mushy sentiment. Life is just good! My Girl is struggling medically and that sucks. But she is strong, happy, smart and amazing. My Little Man is growing by leaps and bounds. Every day he has more words and is more independent. Of course yesterday's post says everything I need to about my husband. We have a strong and loving family. God is present with us and guiding us along the way.

I don't think I have ever had a point in my life where I could say there was a peaceful happiness. Anxiety always snuck in with it's buddy fear. Or I was wanting or needing something more in my life. I was competing and comparing with all of those around me. Today I feel that peaceful happiness. I look around and don't want or need for anything else. And as far as comparing/competing, there is no need because my life is perfect for me. I don't worry much about what others think of me or how others are judging me. I just don't have time or energy for it. If the relationship feels bad or toxic, I need to address it or move on.

At the end of each day I look forward to my blog and mediation/prayer time. It settles me, grounds me and reminds me of all the blessings in my life. Things are not perfect every moment but when the sun sets it was all as it should be. I know that God is directing the ship and I just need to cruise along with him. He needs me to do the next right thing and utilize the tools He has blessed me with. They say all things change in time. I just enjoy this peace while it lasts.