Keep Learning

I believe I may be getting more out of Vacation Bible School than any of the kids I am teaching. Each night I sit down with the lesson for tomorrow and read it over. I say a prayer and ask God to direct me. Every night I have come out with a lesson for my self or a reminder about my faith. Tonight I was reading our lesson on "God Loves You" It was talking about forgiveness which is something I am not very good at. I can be a grudge holder and work hard on trying to change that. So this reminder hit me right in the character defect.

Today I had a "moment" with someone who has become somewhat of a mentor spiritually as a Mom. It was hurtful and I was already having a rough moment. I don't believe she meant to be mean or bitchy but she was. There was a miscommunication and instead of approaching me with kindness, she chewed me out a bit. I admit I was a bit stunned and taken aback. I tried not to internalize it and know that what I had done was not what was presented. After a couple minutes I approached her and apologized for not having let her know what happened. She felt a bit blindsided by an event and I told her I was sorry. She did not seem that receptive at the moment.

I think by the end of the morning we were better able to communicate about the miscoomunication. In all honesty, I think she was having a real bad day, possibly a bad week. It has been crazy at camp and she is already overdone and overworked. I don't think it was about me at all. Just a molehill that blew up a tiny bit because of frayed nerves and frustration. So I feel like why bother to be angry or hurt when it truly just isn't about me. And if it is a little because she feels I was wrong, I annoyed her or she just doesn't like me, it is not my problem. I did what I needed to do and all the major players agree.

Maybe I am growing and getting a bit better about this forgiveness thing? Or maybe I am just better at prioritizing my life and being less self-centered? Either way it certainly makes life happier and more enjoyable : )