The Pit

My mind has been whirring all afternoon and that pit is back in my stomach. You see I heard the two words that cause utter fear in my heart - sinus infection. This time it is Ricky who is the sick one. He has had a couple minor infections in the past year and it has taken him 6 weeks but he has gotten better. So why feel so anxious and fearful?

I suppose there are many reasons that I have had a lump in my throat and a ball of anxiety in my stomach since Ricky's appointment. One is that I hate when my kids have any infection. Number two is that he has been diagnosed with a penicillin allergy which limits our choices of treatment. Number three is we have been down this road with his sister and it sucked, Maggie started with a fever due to a viral infection in October of 2009, had another one in spring of 2010 and ended in May on IV antibiotics to kill the sinus germs that just wouldn't die.

The biggest player here is Mother's intuition. I just know that what is going on in those sinuses is nasty and feel it is going to take a big push to move those germs out. I have no ct scan or medical license. All I have is Mom knowledge, my heart and knowledge all about my Little Man.

Where does that leave me and my fears? Well the blog is named Faith and the IgA so that should give a clue. It leaves me on my knees praying for strength and wisdom whatever may happen. It is praying for the strength to let not only the infection fear go but to hand Ricky over to God. I visual placing him in God's hands. And I have to step back and take a breath. I have faith that whatever happens, God will hold him and love him through each moment. And as his Momma, I need to follow the doctor's orders, nurture him and love him.

It is normal as a Mom to have fears and anxieties when it comes to medical issues. The greatest gift I can give them is safety and stability. And the only way to do that is with God at my side.