The past couple of days, I have had a lot of support and kind words from friends and family. I have felt down and overwhelmed with all the stuff that has happened the past week. Honestly, I am grateful for all the sentiments people have shared but I just couldn't shake the blues.
Even the sweet words that my husband shared didn't shake me out of it. For anyone who knows my husband, sentiment and mush is not really his thing. But seeing me struggle he told me how happy and grateful he is that I am his kids mom. That he thinks they are so awesome b/c of me and all I do. He gave me a big hug and reminded me that he and the kids love me and would be lost without me.
This afternoon I was exhausted and done. I just wanted to lay on the couch and zone out. It had been an off schedule morning. Lunch was late and I paid for it. Maggie was hungry and tired. The consequence was a pretty nasty temper tantrum. It was an end of the rope kind of moment. We needed to settle down and regroup. After quiet time, the kids and I curled up on the couch for a little Dora and Diego.
Maggie was curled up on my legs and Ricky snuggled in my arms. This was my reminder, my pick me up. Here I was with the sweetest two kids ever enjoying a nice quiet moment. Maggie told me, "Mommy I love being with you" and gave me a huge hug. About 5 minutes later Ricky looked up and smiled his beautiful smile. He gave me one of his kisses and told me "Momma Baby". At that moment I realized that this is what it is about even when life feels overwhelming and out of control. These 2 angels continue to remind me that no matter what happens I am blessed. I don't need to worry about the yesterdays and tomorrows, I just need to be present in today.
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