None of My Business

I have been told that what people think of me is none of my business. I agree with that but it is sometimes hard to internalize. I can let my fears and insecurities get the best of me. Then I start to question my choices and where I am at. It is a hard to battle the demons of worrying about who thinks what of me.

I have had a couple of experiences lately where I have felt judged or looked down upon because I choose to stay home with my kids. My belief that God has guided me here to be the Maggie's and Ricky's Mom is not one that a lot of people agree with. I suppose my faith has guided my feelings but I truly believe that this is what I am meant to be doing. I am right where God wants me to be.

With all of that said, I do believe I have to take care of myself. I need to eat healthy, sleep, keep my priorities in order, exercise, etc. At the same time, I know the sacrifices (if you want to call them that) I make for my family are blessings and not crosses to bear. I don't feel resentful or angry or even overwhelmed. I may have moments but they pass and God refills my fuel tank.

So in those moments when I feel judged for staying home and focusing on my children, I just take a breath. I remember all the wonderful things about being with them. I say a prayer. I know that I am fulfilling my calling from God at this moment. I have faith that I am doing His will and He has my back. It still stings a bit but the truth is it is none of my business.