Appointment

How to even begin tonight's entry. Maggie and I went to the ENT today for her appointment. His assessment was that she has mucous/infection and inflammation but.... The but is that it doesn't seem to be serious enough to warrant any further (or more invasive treatment). We just need to stay the course on the nasal spray and singulair.

So how does this all sit with me when Maggie is still complaining about her head "hurting"? How do I assess myself where this whole thing is? I have absolutely no idea! I just keep praying and putting one step in front of of the other. I suppose I could shed a couple of tears to get the frustration out or take a walk to settle my craziness. In all honesty, some cheesecake and General Hospital feels like the best medicine.

It has been implied by the ENT that Maggie may be exaggerating her symptoms. Yes they are there but she is upping the ante. Do I buy it? I don't know. Is she using it to manipulate me? Could be. Or does she really feel yucky and this is just her reality? That is what the pediatrician feels is more likely. Maggie has some "stuff" going on in her head. That "stuff" is making her feel yucky but she is not sick enough to require major invasive treatment (thank God!). It just makes her feel yucky all the time.

That "yucky" may be her reality for awhile. I hate the thought of that. I struggle to wrap my heart and soul around it. I want to be able to make her 100%. To fix it and make it all better. Okay I can't do that so I need to do the next right thing. That means teaching her to rise to the challenge. To be happy, successful and well-rounded in spite of the yuckies.

I am not sure how I feel or what it all means. I will review with our trusty Dr. T and go from there. It may be time to just quit the crazy search for a resolution and work with what we have. Or maybe there is more options available that we have yet to come upon. I will just have to hand it over to God and let Him lead the way.