Butterflies

Okay I have to admit I have butterflies in my stomach about Maggie's ENT appointment today. We have to leave in an hour and that hour can't go fast enough. I don't know if it is from the emotion of the day (extended family funeral) or the situation itself but crying feels to be on the horizon. I just am having one of those heartbreak reaction every time I have to review the past 12 weeks of my baby girl's life. She needs a break and a resolution to this situation. I just have a feeling of "we must get something done" going in to this meeting. The problem is I already know there is no guarantee that anything will be done. We may be sitting here tomorrow still counting the days that this continues. I am so grateful for a couple of pals who listened with no advice and accept my frustrations unconditionally. I truly appreciate the safe place to let off steam. It helps me to walk through the stress and get back to the moments of peace. God has definitely blessed me with support to help me along this crazy journey.