Growth

The past 6 months have been a time of growth for me. I feel like I have been that snake whose skin was to small and had to be shed. The process has been sometimes painful and rough. Other times it has been freeing and invigorating. I have learned so much about myself and found a confidence and peace that I did not know existed. It seems as if most of my relationships have changed in some capacity. I have ended friendships, started new ones and some have transitioned into a new stage.

One of the biggest relationships that has changed is with Rick. I have always loved him with all my heart and soul. He is my best friend and loves me in spite of myself. We are extremely different people; I am the emotional part and he is the cerebral part of the relationship. Our communication, or lack thereof, has sometimes left a lot to be desired.

Our journey got a little rocky the past year or so and we had some realities to face. There were moments were I felt we had failed and our relationship was rocked to its core. Thank God we were both willing to to attend counseling and got a solid base to work with. After a few sessions and some much needed information from a couple of resources, we went to work.

It hasn't been easy and there are still some rough moments. Overall, we have shaken away the baggage of our growing up and families. We now look at each other with more open and understanding eyes. Our fights and discussions have results and understanding. It is as if we have finally grown up and can be partners on this journey.

My husband and I both have our faults. We are human and we stumble along the road. In the end, we love each other and are committed to the forever we promised 5 years ago. Neither one of us can visual life without each other. We are clear on our goals and the priorities we have for our life together. Rick and I are grateful for our 2 blessings and revel in the joy they bring to us.

We got married 5 years ago but lately it feels like we have hit that newlywed spot all over again. What was old is now new and our relationship has been re-energized. I was listening to the kids' Jack Johnson cd this week and this one song just reminded me of our relationship:

I was broken but I would rather be broken-down with you in my life!

I would rather struggle through the hard times and celebrate the good times with Rick than anything else anyone could offer me. I thank God daily for the wonderful man he put into my life as my husband and the father of my children.