Maggie and I ventured out to the mall this afternoon to run a couple of errands. I have noticed a lot lately how grown up she has become. No longer do I see any baby or toddler in her. She is a kid 100%. I am very proud of the girl who she has grown into but there are moments when I miss the baby she was.
Today at the mall I noticed a Mom with a little girl about one. They were sharing a snack in the food court. I looked over at my big girl as she sipped the lemonade we shared and remembered all those days and moments we have spent just being together. Before Ricky was born and when Rick was working, Maggie and I had lots of adventures. I loved just being with her and hanging out. I felt a little sentimental tug at the heart strings.
In a week and a half, my sweet girl starts pre-k. She is going to school five mornings. I groan at the thought of early mornings and a more structured schedule. I also feel a bit nostalgic at the thought of not being with her as much as we have. Chatting with Maggie is one of my favorite things. We love to laugh and wonder about why this is that way or what makes that work. I will miss her as she begins her educational journey into the world.
It is funny because I have my moments but Maggie is full force ready to go. She asks me daily when her school starts. I am informed of how excited she is at least a couple times of day. Maggie is not the kid to want to hang on to my apron strings. She is independent and has a strong desire to explore and learn. As much as I may want to hold her back and keep her close, I know that for her it is time to take this step.
With all that has happened and the immune deficiency, I can get anxious about sending her out into the world. Those anxieties are tamed by two things: Maggie and God. Maggie has shown me time and time again that she is more than capable of succeeding in this world. She is happy, smart and full of life. I know in the depths of my soul that whatever life throws her, she will beat it. Even in the short times she has been on her own (school or gymnastics) she has flourished. We have had to walk through and process some lessons but she always gets it and grows.
God is also a huge factor in believing that Maggie will be okay. I truly have faith that God is watching over and caring for her each moment. He will always be there for her. The added bonus is that Maggie has such a strong faith and connection with God. I know that on her journey, He will continue to fill her heart and she will continue to turn to Him for guidance.
Maggie has been one of the biggest blessings in my life. Approximately 5 years ago I found out I was pregnant. I have loved her with all I am since that moment. I have tried to capture each moment and am grateful that God picked out this perfect little girl just for me!
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