Stress Management

Tomorrow is part 2 of our 3 part test for Ricky. As I have written in a previous blog, his last immune numbers were not that great. We had to re-immunize him 3 weeks ago to try and boost his IgG levels. We are now at the blood work part of the test. Ricky goes in tomorrow morning and gives a crazy amount of blood. The next and final step is 2 weeks away when we meet with Dr. T.

The blood work is for the immune concerns and allergies so the amount is more than usual. This is concerning because I wonder if Ricky will be okay with the process. And if he isn't, will it take longer than the normal to get all needed vials. I hate the process and having to hold my Little Man down while they poke and prod him. It breaks me heart every time I have to do it with either Maggie or Ricks.

The main stress is something that we won't know until our meeting with Dr. T. There are 4 scenarios that can come from the latest blood work:
1. The IgG numbers go up and we can breathe a sigh of relief until the next round of bloodwork
2. The numbers don't go up and we have to re-immunize and do this all over again
3. The numbers don't go up, re-immunize again and then end up giving Ricky prophylactic antibiotics.
4. The numbers show that Ricks gets a new and more serious diagnosis.

So as you can guess, I am praying for number 1! There is nothing I can do about any of it now. I have told myself that I will worry about the day we sit down in Dr. T's office to get the results. To worry now would waste the next weeks. I don't even want to think about all energy I would exert and the things I would miss fretting over it. So we put one foot in front of the other and have faith.

If the result is #1, we will celebrate! If the result is #2, 3 or 4 we will do the next right thing just as we have the past year. If there is one thing I have learned, it is all doable. God will never let us fall on our journey. It may get bumpy and scary but He will be there to help us navigate and find our way. I suppose that is why I feel okay with it all. I have a complete belief that even if the news is the ultimate worst, God will be there to hold us and carry us until we can manage. He has provided for us throughout this whole journey. And each moment has helped us grow and change to make us stronger. Sometimes I don't know the whys of what happens. I do know we are not alone and God's love will be there through it all.