Mistakes

I had a conversation tonight about motherhood and mistakes. When I was pregnant I had a picture of what kind of Mom I wanted to be and how I was going to parent. Then Maggie was born and the fear hit. I realized how amazing this little person was and how much I loved her. And I realized that the image I had created might not be the reality of being the "Mom".

Four years and two kids later I have realized that the reality is far more awesome than my expectations of motherhood. My belief was that I could, and would, be the "perfect" mother. Once the baby was here and I struggled, the anxiety started to set in. When I made mistakes, because I am only human, I beat myself up.

The past year and all its craziness has taught me some very important lessons. One of the biggest lessons is that I will make mistakes but I need to learn from them and move on. Mistakes are a part of life, especially parenting. So when I make a mistake I try to make my amends, learn from them and grow a little bit. Most importantly, I love my children with everything I have. I try to do the right thing for them and be a good role model. I pray that God will watch over them and guide them, despite all of my mistakes.