An Attack

Last night Ricks woke me up twice. At first I thought it was just the end of the two year molar teething. I gave him some Ibuprofen, ice chips and tlc. The second time I got him up I noticed his lips were a bit swollen and he was pushing his tongue in and out of his mouth. This is his sign that his tongue is feeling funny. A look at his back showed a new wave of hives all over him. How could he be having an allergic reaction? He had 2 tsp of Allegra in him and a tsp of Zyrtec. This worried me.

I gave him 1 tsp of Bendryl and within 15 minutes he seemed to settle. His lips went down and the hives seemed to lighten. Another random allergic, non-allergic reaction in the middle of the night that we survived! I had no idea what had triggered it and was glad to have caught it.

This is the killer thing about this situation - there is no pattern or logic. Ricks' immune system seems to randomly send out histamine that attacks his body. There is no trigger or cause needed so it is not really an allergic reaction. It is just his immune system acting as if there is a cause. It is annoying and scary. It happens at weird times and now I always have Bendryl with me.

I am exhausted after last night and a bit freaked out. It is overwhelming me to think of leaving him with this going on. What if someone doesn't notice this is happening? He can't verbalize it and what if it slips by whoever is taking care of him? What if it progresses and his breathing is affected? Oh boy the fears can roll on forever.

Dr. T is running a lot of blood work and we will hopefully find out more in a couple weeks. It all seems to be leading back to some kind of autoimmune disorder. They say it is hard to diagnosis an autoimmune in small children and I will second that. It feels like we are looking for a needle in a haystack and we have only begun. I don't know what our next step is and just trying to have faith in God. I second that faith with trust in Dr. T.

Today, in this moment, I feel scared. I also know in my heart that I will find the strength and courage needed in God. I will continue to send up my fear in prayer to God and ask Him for guidance and grace. And for all who read this please keep on praying. It makes the these moments a bit easier knowing that lots of prayers are going up for my Little Man.